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Rest are here.
Time now's 8.24 AM, but amusingly, I'm not exactly that adapted to Singapore's climate. Somehow, I kind of miss Taiwan's frigid conditions; Or perhaps, it's somehow an external manner to regenerate the pulverized heart within, I don't know. It's baffling trying to relinquish stitched memories. Digressing a little, I realised the percentage to salvage a warped relationship is practically zero. Take Zi Hui as an ample example. She's been forgiving and expunging the faults her girlfriend have commited, yet, at the end of the day, righteousness wasn't prevailed. No wait, maybe something else did, at least I hope so, perhaps she managed to attain insusceptibility. However, so what if she or rather, so what if I'm able to be impervious to impending tides, or say, oncoming relationships? Once bitten, Twice shy. =)
I'm chafed, annoyed, convulsed, whatever. I'm detesting the invisible barrier I've between reality and myself, I'm trying to stay stabilised, attempting to shield myself from anything, everything. In fact, it's quite enervating. Still, somehow, despite knowing the impact these cynisims provide, I'm still practicing it - paradoxical, ain't it? hah.
I once told Zi Hui that fairytales will never last, in fact, frankly speaking, no relationship will surpass the test of time. Commitments will languish, eventually and how can I forget, the most common line which I used to hear from Celeste, promises are meant to be broken.
So enlighten me; Why bother surrending yourself to love, injecting passions into a certain someone, yet, knowing that you'll eventually be forlorn, piled with insecurities, falling back to the anguished side and the most demanding procedure - having to spend an elephantine amount of time hoisting yourself again? I mean, Why do something that's foreseen, why?
Relationships are meant to be fiascos - this shall be my final say, I think.
I sound exactly like a drama queen now.
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I hope the stress level won't be a factor that's going to warp the jelly I know. =) I'm here, sashimi too. Hugs. |
12:56 AM