| Huiwen once told me that people don't mean whatever they say when they are indignant. Still, why am I able to perform the otherwise? What does it means when a person constantly regards you as her personal torment?
Words are cheap. Or rather, affectionate indites are superficial.
I realised that I'm such a cry baby. I cry whenever harshness is being implemented. I cry when paranoia pounces on my back. I cry for anything or everything that concerns her.
Honestly, I miss the times when I couldn't care less about my commitments. At least, I wouldn't be that vulnerable and shameless. Then again, what's the point of having a concealed commitment when the person you've committed yourself to doesn't think likewise.Maybe I should be Philophobia's newest victim. At least I'll be spared from further pangs of veiled lunacy.
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Terms of agreement.(ME)
1. we'll keep to seeing each other only once a week.
2. No PMS-ing
3.no getting grouchy
4.no bingeing
5.no purging.(or at least tell me when u're at it)
6.no mentioning of CL during our weekly meet ups. (it pisses me off sometimes, just SOMETIMES,maybe all the time)
7.FLIRT ALL U WANT WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE ( and the other party better be absolutely gorgeous n have a more fucked up face than i do )
8.tell me u miss me.
9.give me a tight squeeze when i'm frowning.
10.remember i have the key to your locket,
11.and that i'm wearing your ring on my left hand, e fourth finger.
12.i accepted the rice cake and you're all mine now.( no further bargains, the geisha's taken)
13.you keep meow-ing, it turns me on =)))
14.be nicer, more endearing, im a sucker.
15. remember to abide to all of the above and i'll be yours to ditch =)
terms of agreement by MEI NU!!!
1. Flirt all you wish, but, make sure the girl's no where hotter than me.
2. Stop showing your stupid pompous fuck face, it sends the wrong type of perceptions.
3. Wear your specs more often; it makes you look really alluring.
4. Make sure you supply me with your daily dosage of smses. It drives me nuts when you decide to switch on the ignoration mood of yours.
5. Stop charming me with that pair of sickening eyeballs.
6. I love it when you're being utterly silly, so continue portraying yourself in that manner.
7. MORE HUGS NEEDED. =) They are my source of security
8. Stop smoking, without losing your temper at me.
9. You can't leave me cause you accept the ring I gave you!
10. In other words, Only I'm obliged to ditch you! Bleah
Realised how twisted promises get when disputes come in between?
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Was flipping through the pages of Memoirs of a Geisha, and I happened to chance upon a few endearing words which both of us once said to each other, six months ago that is. Thus, making me notice how time changes one's behavior.
I guess it's not really a good thing when you get to the core of one's true blue behavior. Now now, don't get me wrong, I'm not having any second thoughts or anything for that matter. I just feel like turning the hands of time and perhaps, start experiencing the purity of simple crushes with the very same person again. |
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