| Time now is two twenty two am, and I can't get to sleep. Tui Hou's currently playing on my itunes, and it reminded me of you singing it to me.
I don't know why do you always have to be so insensitive. Why do you even bother saying that you've removed that stupid shield of yours, when you jolly well know that its no where near your proclaimed removal. I wish to get closer to you, share your insecurities, understand your confusions...
Seriously, is it that hard for you to be totally honest about your emotions? Its so difficult trying to predict your every moves. Your anger seems to be getting so heinous, it frightens me. I detest crying buckets, but it seems that we're destinated to be apart for a few hours after each quarrel. Still, perhaps, these hours mean nothing to you, but it does to me. No, it means alot to me. Must you always be so self-centered? Can't you just place yourself in my shoes, even just for a single second?
I love you, I really do.
As the saying goes, people learn from their past experiences. So, why can't you see I'm trying to prevent any misfortunes from obstructing our path? You're my perfect lover, and I don't want to lose you, because, it seems like you're the only one who is willing to binge on jap food on a daily basis, the only one who sends chills down my spine when you use endearing terms on me, the only one listens to my whines, the only one who appreciate my flaws, the only one who took care of me when I was sick, the only one who has the ability to initiate my smiles, the only who is able to melt my heart with your dulcet vocals, the only one who heals my forgetfulness, the only one who I'm willing to propose to and the only one who I really want to spend my life with.
Can't you see all that? |
2:29 AM